Breaking Dawn

I miss kissing her head.

2011-06-09T04:01:00.000-07:00

Sorrow just simply strikes. I wonder, how come I will still be homesick terribly even I have stayed away from home for more than 2 years...... Useless shiett. And this time is getting serious because I still hard to adapt even it's second week after my classes started. Sigh. Uncurable sickness.

Human is greedy, ask for more and never ending. Human never appreciate the good things happen or exist around them till they lost it. It's just human nature, isn't it?

Memory flashed back to the time where my granny stayed with us while I was still in primary school. She always sat there still watching tv with me after I back from school. I'm not so close with her as my Hakka dialect is not as fluent as my elder sister. My broken dialect. >.<

子欲养而亲不在.

Everyone live and die. So as you and me. But I just miss her so badly. She was so old and weak, as she need to have specialist and nurses to take care of her routine life and daily activity. I can't recall the actual date she was admitted to the nursing home. But the memory is fresh in my mind where I always go visit her with my mom and family whenever I was in Kuching. I talked to her, whispered beside her ears, padded on her head, smelled and kissed her.

I felt sorry that I couldn't be with her when she closed her eyes.... The sin in me is killing me. Now. Can I kiss her for the last? The guilt in me.....I cant bear. I wish to hug my mom to give her strength and support, but I was not there. I WAS NOT. Sometimes distance really kills, isn't it? It's missing season. It's missing season. Missing season.

It's all about belief. I believe granny is happy up there, meeting with her loved ones above. Everything has two sides, everyone has two faces. Even the world, is beautiful yet cruel. God sent her to us but took her away. HE took her away. To live a better life above with HIM. I pray for her happiness. I pray for family happiness.

Left half year in my uni life, I appreciate the friends who come into my life, who give me happiness and support me all these years. They help me to cope with my homesickness indeed. =) They are great persons in my life. I love them.

不要哭.

爸爸妈妈我爱你 ^^

2010-11-12T03:27:00.000-08:00

今天想用华语写部落格. 我的华语不是很好, 如果写得不是很好的话, 你们看过就算啦. 哈哈. 最近听了一首华语歌, 我觉得很熟悉. 熟悉不在于它不是一首新歌, 是在于歌词清楚叙述某人对世界的看法与感觉. 也许那某人是我自己? =)) 华语歌其实我不是很常听可是最近都常重复同一首, 看我几时觉得对它厌烦吧,哈哈.

当生存是一个规则而不是选择时, 我们应该要开心还是无动于衷的过呢? 我想我是后者, 当我远离家人时. 笑,是我穿的保护色. 其实有意义吗叻? 生存不为什么而是为自己? 有没有问过人其实要不要生存? 没有. 原来人是没有选择的, 可以酱讲吗? 还是人是有选择的, 有勇气跨出那一步就可以掌握自己要怎么生活? 人生真无奈. 我想念家人, 至少我没有忧虑,当我躲在爸妈的羽翼下时. 我不会去思考人生活是为了什么因为我是开心的, 我是笑着的. 这时候我已脱下我穿的保护色. 每个人都戴着面具不是吗? 大多数的人都很假不是吗? 辛苦. 哪天有人的心在滴血我们也看不见因为对方隐藏得很好,相同的,当自己伤心得要死,也会逞强穿上那层保护色. 所谓的强颜欢笑. 悲哀.

我从来都不觉得我生存是为了自己,我是为了家人和我爱的人而活. 哪天世界已不再有我生存的理由,我愿意结束在此刻,重新生活. 又或者我再也没有生活的机会与权力? 别人都说珍惜生命. 结束并不一定是去死, 而是由内心的死去. 心死了,那个人还是生活着的吗? 每天过着行尸走肉的生活,请问意义在哪里? 人要开心的活着, 有什么事情东西值得去开心? 是不是换个思想就能开心? 快乐,很容易却很难. 开心是一个人喝酒在狂欢? 很多未知数. 可能我的人生经验还很浅,少到可怜. 还在adolescence思想的阶段,难免对世界会有很灰的感觉. 我各人啦,不是别人.

又或许我是排行第2的关系,我从来都是一个人在角落. 不愿讲话,不愿打交道,只爱微笑. 我在拥抱着那被遗弃许久的小孩. 她还是以前的那个她. 静静的坐在角落,自己和自己玩,享受一个人的狂欢,放纵自己在孤独. 伤从不肯完全的愈合. =))

当心不再痛和心动,是不是心死了? 只是一个问题,我在探索. 当这世界笑了,我也合群的笑了. 可是心是不是在笑呢? 只有自己知道. 就够了. 小丑不也是掩饰伤心制造快乐给别人吗? 伟大. 我不怕死亡,我害怕的是伤了身边爱我和我爱的人. 从来都是先考虑别人的感受才留个时间给自己疗伤,这是自虐的行为吗? 曾有人告诉我说,他和我站得很靠近,可是觉得中间隔着一个大海. 是不是我孤立了自己? 因为自我保护意识很强吗? 我把灵魂锁起来了. 什么时候才能释放? 心里有个巨大的监牢. 想逃跑却没勇气. 这时刻只想狂奔回家. 奔跑是可以抒发心情的一种做法叻,至少对我有效.

人类本来就是寂寞的. 来的时候是一个人,走的时候也是一个人. 可怜到要死. 有些人不能忍受寂寞,因为他们害怕寂寞,因为害怕被遗忘. 可是一个人也可以是一种享受不是吗? 无拘无束.

你值得真正的快乐. 你应该脱下你穿的保护色.

Coagulation

2010-07-15T01:44:00.000-07:00

Sorry that I keep posting negative issues on my blog..... I blog when I feel down, I blog when my heart feels uncomfortable. Smile can symbolizes alot of meanings. Smile, cuz I sad; smile, cuz I feel pain inside; smile, cuz I never wanted to be apart; smile, cuz I remember; smile, cuz I cherish. Bleeds isnt painful, but when heart dies, it is. Torturing physically isnt painful, but mentally, it is. Loving never meant owning. Leaving doesnt mean there is no more love. Words are not necessary. I hope the best for you.

今天, 静雯死了

R.E.J.E.C.T.E.D

2010-06-03T08:55:00.001-07:00

REJECTED. A deep thought from it. Related of many issues of me. I never try to talk to anyone, as none can understand. Im a resistant client, perhaps? Family, health, friendship, studies etc...killing me softly. So near yet so far away. I wish for a breakaway, a runaway. Family can be a soft spot, a weakness; poor health can be a blockage; friends can be bitches; studies can be a murderer. A deep sorrow which I can't solve easily, a sadness which follow me wherever I go, a misery that haunt me right after I awake. I hate. I angry. I disappointed. I...wanna scream. At last, I learnt. I back off. I become silent. Peace. Everything around me goes silent. But I heard cracking sounds in my heart. I listened carefully. It's the cracking sound of my heart. Making me hard to breath.

I smile with a broken heart, my friend. Do you ever noticed?

I miss home. (=

Especially Dedicated For You

2010-06-02T08:50:00.000-07:00

如果你和你的他/她分隔两地请不要放手

哪怕你承受着很痛苦的思念哪怕每天晚上都会睡不着

只要你坚持了那么你将拥有别人没有的幸福

珍惜现在所拥有的才是你应该做的事

他/她不希望等来的是空白

有些事情等失去了再回头就已经没有了

当你发觉他/她是多么爱你对你多重要的时候

再回头说对不起就已经太晚了

不是每句对不起都会换来没关系的

执子之手白头偕老

因为你们的等待是值得的

虽然远隔千山万水

但是他/她的心时时刻刻都放在你身上

虽然你们想对方的时候只能发条短信

虽然你不开心的时候他没能陪在你身边

但是不要埋怨他/她

难道他/她不想陪你吗

找一个喜欢你的人容易

但是找一个用心爱你的人难

距离就是考验感情的试卷

时间就是考试的题目

茫茫人海可以找到心爱的人

这是多么大的福气

想你就是一份简单的幸福

能等到你和你在一起

才是真正的幸福

Read these sentences which someone linked to me, it touched my heart indeed. Maybe because I come across this experience too? I should citate the ppl who wrote this ho? But then I don have the source, juz forget bout it ba, ppl. xD My cousin married yesterday but too bad that I cant attend her wedding. I always love to attend wedding dinner cuz it is so pleasant and feel so sweet. I love seeing loving couples get married and attached to each other. Such a beautiful thing right? Yeapz! Haha. Well well well~~ Handling a relationship is never an easy task to accomplish, need a long period of time and strength to manage it well. I know Im talking sth deadly theory, you all must be thinking who also know this lo, hahaha..... == Forget it, I din say that before. =x

Today is Wednesday and I've no class for every Wednesday. So I went for grocery shopping with my friends and really bought a huge amount of groceries. == I did a grocery list before I went to shop but then I forgot to bring it out. == Fish memory can stands for 7 seconds only, sorry ppl. xD But I din miss a thing. *teehee* Big claps for myself. =D I woke up at 130pm on my lovely Wednesday. But then I feel awkward that I cant get used of the free time I got. Why? Cuz last sem I went to school 6 days a week. 6 days a week, ppl! Means Saturday also got class. == French class. Haha. Hmph.....so I'm cracking my head what can I do for my free time. Then I went for grocery shopping as I mentioned above lo. But good thing is, I can prepare for my assignments on my nothing-to-do Wednesday. LOL!

What else to say? Hmph..... Currently Im still homesick-ing. >.<>

祝天下有情人终成眷属

I've never regret. (=

Homesick...... T.T

2010-06-01T07:02:00.000-07:00

As you all can see from my big title above, Im having homesick. Again. Terribly. *sigh* My semester break was juz 2 weeks time, which I think it is SERIOUSLY not enough, man......how will enough jek? My lil sis's semester break also 3 weeks at least la. T.T Long piak-ing. Currently, Im back to my campus and sitting in front of my laptop posting this "article", in my room. What else to say? Juz blogging mood strikes me suddenly, Imma random person. ==

Right after separating with my family, I feel homesick terribly. I mean right after, yea it is. The moment I turn back from waving goodbye to my family at the airport, my tears was rolling in my eyes. It juz came suddenly, without any memo or notice. == I thought I will be okay, at least I was still, when we were having dinner together, before my departure. Dad and me even joke bout nth to homesick or cry of bout leaving, since it was not the first time. I strongly agreed and nod my head that time. But then why the feelings get stronger and deeper from semester to semester?

I really miss them alot, super duper much that kind. Previously talked with a best friend of mine about this issue, she asked me did I notice I've been dependent to my family too much. I said yes, I never deny it. Family is really playing an important role in my life. She asked me did I notice it's actually not a good thing. Yea, it is...... Im an adult now but still love to hide in mom's embrace sometimes, still love to hold hands with my dad. I miss his warm and big hands. T.T I feel love and care in it. Sorry that I said sth that hurt him when Im in secondary form, the rebellious me. How childish I was. Zzz.

It always need days or weeks for me to adapt the life without them beside me, after Im back to uni life. Its not easy, for me. For a daddy's girl like me. == Its so often that I miss them till tears accompany me to sleep at night. So few of my friends are facing this condition as me, they are much more independent than me perhaps? Or Im more sticky to my family than them? Both. ==

Assignments are given to us since the first day we went to class. Everything was so familiar, familiar things are coming back to me. Which I had started to deal with since I get into uni. Those stubborn yet troublesome assignments. Not to say mid terms, presentations and final. This is my 1st week going to classes in this semester but I've felt the tension in me. Maybe the homesick has became the underlying cause which makes me feel weaker? I dunno, but most probably it is. *sigh* Tension is created by human self, not to blame anyone or some non-living things, eg. the assignments those. So perhaps its me pressing myself too much. Perfectionism. A cruel and stubborn kind of behavior, towards myself. Someone said me headstrong like a cow. == Head is really strong de ma, how to turn it 360 degree jek? LOL. Being lame again. Juz entertaining myself under this miserable condition. Be empathy, ppl. ==

Really miss home so much, how le? End of Sept juz can meet my family, such a long time for me. I feel like years, seriously!! Can I go back meet them in between? Dirty tricks. >.<>

Recently feel so tired, what's wrong le? Hmph......new semester juz get started but I've exhausted mentally and physically. Cant be that way. Fighting!!! ^^ Goodnight, ppl.

I cant get used to it still. (=

只怪我太不会低头

2010-04-16T02:51:00.000-07:00

Sitting on my bed with lights off, staring on the wall with broken heart

To be honest, I dunno how long can I stand

Head is heavy and dizzy, heart is tiring and bleeding

Body is in high temperature yet I feel my heart is turning cold

Till I shivered and hide in my blanket

The feel is juz like having fever when I was young, thirst for the hug from my parents

Tears at both cheeks symbolized how much I miss...

"Mama, outside here isn't fun. I wanna go home.".

R.E.S.E.T

2010-04-13T00:40:00.000-07:00

Woke up early to attend classes and a Relaxation Workshop today, hope to get a piece of peaceful mind..... It was relaxing but then I juz cant get myself relaxed, I feel my body is so tensed up......for some invisible burden. Not the invisible spirits kinda things in Shutter of cuz, but juz tension. LOL! Therapist said there's a child in our hearts and asked us to talk to him/her. I closed my eyes and try to imagine that is it the child is still inside me......and I found her. The one that left behind and tend to live in her own world. She's lonely but she seemed to have get used to it. I felt heart pain and sorry for her, for neglected her feelings all this while. The long lost ME. I love her. I said sorry to her, I asked for forgiveness. I thanked her for always be there for me. I found that since the day I was born till the moment sitting here typing this, I never open up my heart to anyone. How pathetic is that? Humans are juz so damn pathetic. =) Recently always got those existential thoughts. xD Maybe I'm overprotective to myself.

Believe it or not, humans are selfish. No matter how close you with that person is, you won't be the one who get in his/her mind at the first place, cuz humans always treat themselves better than anyone. When I first discovered this fact few years back, I couldn't accept it cuz I always think that this world is beautiful and kind. But as time goes by, I learnt and I'm numb of those shit. I cant feel much emotions in me when others treat sth so seriously. Maybe.....cuz I'm not surprise, as it is human's nature?? =) Like it or not, this world is always too much of restriction. Till now, I don't have the guts to against those rules that bear on me. Kinda coward right? Aiks....useless.

Every time meet some cruel things outside here, home is always the place that I wanna hide myself in. So I always think that family is the one who treat me the best. Maybe some may feel sad and disappointed of what I said here, but I would rather die if there's no family waiting for me there. There's none couldn't survive without who, juz depends on what is your choice. To be continuously fallen behind or stand by your own feet. For me, I believe I can survive pretty well without anyone with me, but without the Kongs', I would choose to be fallen behind and to be rotten up. Eventually end up dying. =D Don't argue or re-correct my thinking, juz lemme be. =)

I always got too much of principles and rules in me, sometimes it is indeed tiring and heavy. I have boundaries, I have privacy. Inside living a rebellious me. I never wanted someone to tell me what I should do, what I shouldn't. If you're the person, perhaps you should reconsider whether you can stand of my stubborn attitude or not. Cuz I can make your life miserable. Not revenge or what of cuz, haha....... But then I'm who I am. Unless you yourself are great enough to earn my will. Maybe Im self-centered? I juz love to be the ori me. I never thought of changing myself cuz of someone, you either take it or leave it. As simple as that. *teehee* But some said you should change to a better you for the one you love. What if I'm happy and comfortable with the current me? Sickening. Tao tia. >.<>

Even the process is killing and tiring, but I believe if there's a will, there's a way. All depends on your determination and thinking. But gotta be really strong mentally of cuz. Sometimes I blame myself for being too rational and hurt others beside me. As I said, I cant get myself relax and tensed up. Im too tight up for all of the regulations and principles. I carry sin together with me. Maybe Im someone who's hard to get along well with? I appreciate people who show care and love to me all this awhile, thousand thanks to them. As a return, I love and care of them more than towards anyone too. To save them from misery of getting hurt from me, I will step back. Love me to a limit, don't love me to the max.

Reset, keep back my emotions and feelings in me. Buried the unforgettable love deep inside of me.

从来都是一个人 =D

Je suis Triste

2010-03-07T07:03:00.000-08:00

Hey all, Im back!!! Finally. xD Sorry that I stop blogging for such a long long time, haha. Hmph.....firstly, wad am I gonna update le? Yeah......I've started my 2nd year in 2010 and it's totally different with my 1st year. It's much more work to do. I mean, really MUCH MORE work to do. Assignments and mid term-s all come together almost at the same time, which really stress me up. Actually Im kinda low mood today, haha. But why am i still laughing when I said Im down? Discrepancy here. But sometimes, not shedding a tear is much more pain than crying out loud. Thats my feeling now......perhaps. =) *wink* It's so good to cry in rain or shower, you know? At least, it won't let others to know you're actually crying. Today I went to see doc, cuz I ain't feeling well so I was absent for my French class. Owh~ French~ Je'taime!! xD

Distance and apart is sth........difficult and breathless. It is really not easy at all. All it needs is trust. Gotta be strong, once you've chosen to be apart from each other. There's no IF when you wish to turn back time. Time waits no man and it juz keep going. Cruel, aye? Yea, it is. I've chosen to leave my home sweet home, coming all way long to a place that I have no idea about. Is it sth stupid or brave? Haha.....depends on you guys la. Choosing Psychology at Utar, is my own choice. Still rmb that dad asked me whether I really decided to go to Utar, I replied him yes. Without thinking of any further. Now thinking it back, it's really kinda......impetuous? Well, Im headstrong. >.< Undeniably, till now I am.

There's so much thing suppressed at the bottom of my heart. I know its unhealthy, I know it may cause me to have psychological prob if I don find a way to express it out. But, Im not get used to talk my prob to someone. Hmph.....not good not good, ho? Haha. Luckily, Im able to disclose a lil in my own blog. *teehee* These two weeks are my critical week in this sem, excluding my final exam week la. Haha. Assignments, mid term-s, all in these 14 days. Killing......me........slowly and softly. Long piak-ing. But long piak wont help. How good if long piak can helps to finish my assignments and done my mid term-s. In my dream tonight maybe will come true. *teehee* It really need courage and strength to keep moving on, alone. For me. There's no mum and dad take care of my routine life here, but all by myself. I questioned myself, why am I still not get used of life here, although one year had passed? Haha.......and I laugh at myself. I know my health isn't good but I still keep on doin sth that hurt myself. What's the point? Life is ridiculous. Unknown. Im an adult but Im still a mummy's girl. I may seem independent and steady in front of others, but Im a child in my parents' eyes. Im forever a child when Im with them. At this moment, I really miss them. I console myself that Im seeing them soon. To let myself feel better. I miss the moment when dad holding my hands walking and I miss the time when I lay on my mum to watch tv.

Oh no!! I will never grow up if I continue to be like dis. But, who cares? As long as Im happy and my parents are okay with it. =p I love my family till Im willing to sacrifice myself for them. Thats wad I shud do, cuz parents also sacrifice for their children, right? Right. Hell yea. == I sound like Im a good girl but I rebel my parents too. When Im young la, of cuz. Who doesn't have teenage life wor, right? Right. xD Oh no......my mood is really down to hell. Till I cant find where is it. How? Torchlight-ing. I still cant find it. Where had my heart gone to? To nowhere. I hate distance. From now on. I never think that distance is such a big deal, when I was young. == As time goes by, I hate it more and more. Dislike. Shi ro.

Fighting for myself!!! =)

Thanks for cheering up my life, letting me to live my life happier and easier. Thanks to travel all way long juz for meeting me up. Thanks for standing by me since from the beginning. Your love to me is always powerful and strong. All the care and support from you I've received, and I will stand up on my own. Pushing myself. Encouraging myself. Loving myself. =)

If there is an IF. I. Choose to stay.

Thanks for Watching as I Fall

2009-09-21T08:18:00.000-07:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my hearts are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left are lying on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my hearts are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

We were meant for each other
I keep forever
I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone
The pieces of my hearts are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

Don't leave me hanging in a city so dead.

Still a mummy's girl

2009-09-21T07:42:00.002-07:00

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make the same mistakes again
What's wrong what's wrong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs where she belongs

She wants to go home but nobody's home
It's where she lies broken inside
With no place to go no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

Open your eyes and look outside find the reasons why
You've been rejected and now you can't find what you left behind
Be strong be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs where she belongs

She wants to go home but nobody's home
It's where she lies broken inside
With no place to go no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place

She wants to go home but nobody's home
It's where she lies broken inside
With no place to go no place to go to dry her eyes
Broken inside

She's lost inside lost inside
She's lost inside lost inside

I grew up in a happy family, with a cute dad, a caring mum and two adorable sisters. After all the hard times been through, I juz need the embrace of my family. Thanks for giving me the strength to keep moving on. All I want is to cherish you all, for all of the sweetest times, for all the love and care.

I miss home. (=

No title

2009-09-20T06:49:00.000-07:00

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way so never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way and it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you Because of you

Never stop missing you.....the Kongs'.

Ta Da!!!~ ^^

2009-09-04T10:04:00.000-07:00

Back to blog gain, ppl!~ Lemme hear u scream!!! WooTsSss~~!!! LOL. Lame. =p Firstly hor, i wanna explain y am i so damn long time oso din update my blog le? Cuz lo....i dunno y cant get in the website to blog le, tried for days n times juz can, means now juz can lo. Haiz~ Yak si la!! xD Blek!

Hmph....August i've back to Kch attending Jolly's convo. She look sweet n nice on that day n we Kongs' feel so happy for her indeed. My proud Belly n Jelly n my cutest Molly, haha. We have took some pics on the convo day. Under the hot sun le, ppl!! Sacrifice alot for my Jolly er....see~~ Come from so damn far to attend Jolly's convo, so wei da ho!! LOL. Kidding la, that's wad i shud do n i have to do. =p N i felt happy n excited to go back in fact. Wuhoo~~!!

Next, after staying 3 days in Kch then back to uni gain. ag~ag~ag~ -.-" Haha. Continue the presentation period during that time. Not heavy for me but indeed it's relaxing, since no exam n assignment, haha. I've went to Ipoh n Penang during the month of August n i had great times!! WeeEeeeEeee~~!!! Haha. Ss here ba. haha. So wad? so wad?? =p I will upload some pics of mine later on la, when u scroll down will see liao. mai kin tio, ppl~ Haha.

Now is starting of my study week then will have final soon liao. =.= Time flies huh, ppl~ Oways feel time pass so damn fast during sch times. Good oso la, means can meet my family in Kch real soon!! Wuhoo~~!!! ^^v And then wad more ha......oh~~ Juz watched the Final Destination 4 (3D) with ma frens at TGV KLCC. Hmph.....still ok la but i find that FD3 is much more thrilling. LOL! Ello~big FD fans here la!!! =p Suddenly miss the Kongs' tim....and the emo Lucky. xD Random. Haha.

Actually quite tired liao, din have enuf sleep for weeks. Haiz~ Wish i can sleep how long i want soon. Haha. Juz a small wish ma, God.....fulfill it for me fast plz, haha. Before i end my blogging, here comes the pics ppl!! Huhu~~ xD

*Fort Cornwallis*

*Fort Cornwallis*

*Fort Cornwallis*

*Fort Cornwallis*

*Cute horse at Fort Cornwallis* xD

*Gurney Plaza*

*He's real oh!!*

*Train up to Bukit Bendera*

*View from hill top of Bukit Bendera*

*Kek Lok Si*

*Kek Lok Si* (still under construction)

*Snake Farm*

P/S: Stay tough. Fighting!!

I miss home. (=

Back!!

2009-08-03T06:26:00.001-07:00

Hey ya ppl, I'm back to my blog gain!~ xD Hmph.....what i did throughout the month huh? Lemme think~ Undergo some kind of boring lectures n hectic assignments weeks. Doing the assignments from night till morning le...so damn challenging huh? LOL. Thats student life, ppl!! Haha.

Well~ I juz went to KL for roller skating last weekend, and of cuz....fall n hurt my spinal. UhhhHhh~ xD But now ok liao la, sap sap water for me only, hehe. A fun n exciting experience for me, huhu~

Next, is my presentation period. Hmph....kinda looking forward to it actually, as i prefer presentation than assignments n wad mid term n final, haha~ N then ah.....wad more?? Oh ya....i miss my Lucky so so much, wanna kiss n hug him like i oways do. Huhu~~ But i'll be back soon, n i swear i'll take lotza pictures with him n my newly pets - Gucci n Vincci. Haha. Haven seen them in real le, dunno they will treat me as enemy or not. SAD. Oh ya, they r kittens, arent puppies. My mom, Jelly, is a cat freak!!! So damn love kittens n cats. Haha... Talk bout her, kinda miss her le....but soon will meet up mom!!

Wherever Holly goes, family is oways the one that she wont forget of. Hehe~~ ^^ Oways feel warm when heard the voice of the Kongs', love them real muchie!! Huhu~~ And not to forget, the one that oways gimme moral support, love n care. Miss my babes in Kch!!! Actually everything in Kch i oso miss la, fair de ma. xD LAME. Gonna meet up soon too!! ^^v Hmph....i uploaded the KL trip pics in my fb. Ppl, if u wanna see it then u can go to my fb there bio bio. Haha.

Always the Kong's Family

LOST

2009-06-13T08:34:00.000-07:00

Im touched when seeing the words...asking myself will I be too cruel, y am I so stubborn n have so much of hard principles in me. Painful. I find myself lost, dunno where shud I go to. Im hiding myself up from anyone. I start to hide into the shell. I have a deep think after that...I dunno wad i want. A happy n beloved life? Or a life of forcing myself to cheer up? I myself cant figure out. Time is the best medicine of anything, I oways believe in that. I don get used to expose my own confusion to others, how am I suppose to start an opening? No idea. I......am hiding up.
I don belong to anyone. But my family. I miss u all.

回来

Another day......

2009-06-11T08:14:00.000-07:00

of hurt. of disappointed. of suffer. of sad. of depress. of miserable. of pain.
intended to let go. to give up. to end the sorrow. to wave goodbye. to live a happier life.
at this moment......i juz thought of my beloved family.
i miss u all much. u all is the reason i keep breathing. u all is the reason makes me stand. u all is the reason to let me stay. u all is the reason i keep surviving. u all is the reason who give me strength. u all is the reason who give me courage. u all is the reason who make me become stronger than yesterday. u all is the reason.......to resist my pain.

I will be good without u

I'm telling myself I'm happy. (=

First Weekend

2009-06-06T09:17:00.000-07:00

First weekend after sch reopen. Wee....!!~ Time flies, haha. Time flies = assignments + presentations + homework + mid term + final coming soon. Sob sob~ BUT!! Gambateh!!! Haha. Tiiii....new lectures got abit boring ah......boring dao.....!!~ Even sleep b4 going in class, still feelin sleepy in the middle of the lecture, juz can blur-ly see lecturers' mouths r opening n closing, opening n closing, opening n closing, opening n closing n opening n closing... LAME! XD Having a happy weekend with ECC, hiak hiak~ *Huggiez*
Got wad more to add on ho..... OH!! Weather recently si beh hot, oways feel thirsty. Ppl, gotta drink more water n take good care oh. Hmph.....Im a sick ppl in my previous sem break, cuz din take care of myself lo. Sigh. And then ah..... OH!! Takin' Back My Love is my hito now, hiak hiak~ Got abit so nice ah.....haha. Actually nth much to talk here, juz feel like crappin' only, haha.
I love Mickey!!!!!!! Random again. But really love Mickey ma...maybe he's my lover in my past life. Hmph.....seriously think so. LOL! K la.....stop here liao. Cleaned dusty blog. =.="

Miss my Kong's. (=

Big Cleaning!!

2009-05-26T08:31:00.000-07:00

Time to update my dusty blog.....haha~ Been complain by someone it's time to update my blog liao. Hmph....I've started my sem break on 8th of May, after that I went to Genting with my BFFs. Hiak Hiak!~ We play many outdoor games at Genting, we even get a tattoo! Wee!!~ I plan to get a tattoo before goin back for studies too, hehehe~~ Ladies n gentlemen.....of coz is fake de tattoo, guai guai loi here.....where will make real tattoo wor....LOL! n I don have the gut to make a real tattoo too, cannot meh? =p After playing for a day at Genting, then we use cable car n change to taxi back to KL city. Driver drove so fast oh.....but i not kia kia. XD LAME!! =.=" n then wad happen liao? Hmph....oh, meet Jelly, Belly n Molly after that then we straight go to Pavilion. To make everything short, we took pics, walk walk, eat eat, walk walk gain through some days. I din gain weigh.......hiak hiak. I think. Oh la oh la.....wadever. Lame gain. We got went to Pavilion, 1 Utama, Curve, IKEA, Times Square, Sungei Wang, Mid Valley.....those big big n high high de buildings, sui bian la~ don want to think liao...... *yawn* Lol. Then we back to Kuching at 13th of May.

After lepak-ing at home for a week, then I went to Miri liao. Went there from 21st to 26th, which means I juz landed at Kch for a few hours ago then blogging liao. Hardworking le~~ Yea, i know, hehe. =p Have fun at Miri. Erm.....there is much more nth to play if compare to Kch of coz (Mirians don beat me) but I still having fun n happy happy. Hehe~ Cuz I can spent quality times with someone I care n love, but not depends on where am I. *wink* Something nonid to say till so clear de, right? Hiak hiak~ Happy times fly but I've get used to it since 2 yrs n 5 months n I oways feel contented. ^^

Sien lo......still got few days then gotta start study liao.....sob sob. But I will gambateh, fighting!!~ Hehe. Talk bout studies, results juz released n I have checked. Overall still okay, hard works n great efforts paid. Hmph....then wad more ha? Oh......recently got 2 chinese songs r my hito, hehe. 胡彦斌---男人KTV n 游鸿明---无字的情批. I know its not new songs but I seldom listen to chinese songs, so ah......like dis la, hehe. Really got abit so nice le......go listen go listen. Then got wad more to say ho.....hmph~ I think nth liao. Aiyah, sui bian la.....got write sth then ok liao, don say don have write at all. Still consider hardworking right? Yea, I oways know Im so hardworking, thanks for the appraisal. LOL. Ss here ba. Swt.

Ok la......if got think of anything to add, I will drop by gain. Hehe. Goodnight everyone. Sweet dream~

Missing you is my routine. (=

It's All About ME

2009-04-11T07:55:00.000-07:00

Im happy with what I have now. Always feel so contented n do not ask for more than you can get. Family is my life, friends are my happiness and you're my soul. Learn to be mature and understanding, learn to forgive and accept, learn to be simple and grateful. Do not take things for granted, do not assume it's a must of people out there should treating you good n nice. I still got a lot more rooms of improvement. I don rush to learn all values cuz I've a lot of time to experience the happenings in my life. I always think Im not a quick learner, I need time to think, Im not someone who is smart. Im headstrong. I have high pride. I start to view things from different perspectives. Do not judge a book by its cover, no one is born to be bad but they have good hearts since from the beginning. I fight for what I want. I dont give a damn bout what people think bout me. I never bother of who have being not important to me.

Thanks for my family for bringing me to this world, teach me a lot of things since the day I was born. Gimme such a happy n harmony home more than everything. For giving me a chance to experience n meet all sort of people. For building what I am now.
Thanks for my friends that always be by my side whenever I need you all the most.
Thanks for those who had hurt me, without you all, I wont be start thinking how realistic this world is. Without you all, I wont be start protecting myself. Without you all, I wont be cautious living my life to the fullest.
Thanks for people who had passby my life, for all of the memories we've been through together.
Thanks for you who teach me bout life. I be more mature than the old days of me, I be more understanding than the day you know me. I learnt a lot of things from you and I always appreciate that.

Grateful. Simple. Easy. Contented. Forgiving.

Still a mummy's girl. I miss home. (=

Me, Myself And I

2009-03-30T23:14:00.000-07:00

Read a mail sent by a friend of mine...it's so meaningful as let me think of, maybe i shud make my life easier. I love to be in low-profile, i don like to be the focus under the spot light, i don like to talk bout the happenings of my life in public. But i would like to show the words that gimme a chance to think deeper, closer.

break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately, love truly

laugh constantly

and never stop smiling

no matter how strange life is

life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here

we should smile and be grateful

Easy life is always the life I wanted. Maybe i should live a happier n easier life. (=

Random

2009-03-30T09:34:00.000-07:00

miss home

LOST

quiet

memory

apology

care

abandon

neglect

hard

THANK YOU

I can take the pain. (=

I Will Always Smile

2009-03-30T09:01:00.000-07:00

静静的陪你走了好远好远
连眼睛红了都没有发现
听着你说你现在的改变
看着我依然最爱你的笑脸

这条旧路依然没有改变
以往的每次路过都是晴天
想起我们有过的从前
泪水就一点一点开始蔓延

我转过我的脸
不让你看见
深藏的暗涌已经越来越明显
过完了今天
就不要再见面
我害怕每天醒来想你好几遍

我吻过你的脸
你双手曾在我的双肩
感觉有那么甜我那么依恋
每当我闭上眼
我总是可以看见
失信的诺言全部都会出现

我吻过你的脸
你已经不在我的身边
我还是祝福你过得好一点
断开的感情线
我不要做断点
只想在睡前再听见你的
蜜语甜言

I am happy. =]

W.H.Y

2009-03-26T06:34:00.000-07:00

Leehom's W.H.Y~ haha. No la, kidding only. Don be so serious......LAME~ =.=" Dunno y.....i feel some kind of blue......gonna be emo for days liao. XD Listening to some sad songs, happy songs somehow din make my mood feel any better. Uhh..... Suddenly feel time past so slow de oh...why de? Clock pai ki or wad?? LOL. Self entertaining n syok sendiri bah, apalah~~~ XD
Maybe im suffering from the psychotic depression since im doin that topic for my assignment, hahaha..... Jk la, im still veli veli normal wei. When free or nth much to do, in the silence i think of my family n frens in my born place. Miss them veli veli the much, man..... How woh? Am i still not get adapted? Tiiii......faster liao wei. Sigh. Recently, David Tao's Melody is my hit song, haha. A sad song but then touching song, with comfortable rythms. Miss mama, miss papa, miss my two pets n miss my sisters. T.T After all the hard and happy times at here, when lay back n relax, i juz realized im still having homesick critically, as juz myself don notice it. Or am i refuse to remember it? Unconscious. XD
I wanna go jogging, breakfast, Richmond and movie with family again. Haiz. Im really emo now oh. Miss 'em hard.

Give ya'll see their precious pics la! LOL.

*my lengzai doggie - Lucky*

*my cute lil sis. Juz call her Molly* XD

*my lovely elder sis. Juz call her Jolly* XD

*ma cute sis n I* I LOVE HER

n.....i miss the one who took this pic of me.

Din took tiok pic with Jolly ki......mostly Molly n I love camwhoring wad... LOL! N then due to some reasons, i din post up my parents' prettay n hansem pics. *&^%$#@#%!!!~ Haha. Oh ya, and oso LV's pic. Hmph...

P/S: Pics din go with order yea. Juz randomly. Im random. As my frens said. Haha.

I MISS U

Happy moment...... ^^

2009-03-23T06:54:00.000-07:00

Hmph....nth much to say, but juz feel like wanna blog.....can or not? Cannot meh? XD Juz finished the essay writing test this morning, become more relax and more time to rest my mind. Assignments n presentations coming soon...well, jia you, my mates!~ Haha.
I feel like wanna post up some of the exhibition pics last time, choose some pics to upload la, as i'm oways in low-profile. LOL! Thanks to me liao...faster faster. LAME~ Haha... Recently, i feel happier...than the past tense i mentioned last time. Must be happy~ ^^ I'm having good times with my frens in uni, and i oways being appreciative to have them all ard. I wanna have happy uni life~ Miss mama n papa.....sobz sobz. Lucky n LV....molly n jolly..... T.T Big kisses to 'em, hahaha... ^^

Okay la.....pics time!!!

*rehearsal-ing*

*progressing*

*rehearsal-ing*

*progressing*

*our tunnel*

*me n Myna*

*four good frens*

We will go through every obstacles ahead hands in hands. Stay strong, my frens. ^^ T2 is oways the best. Being supportive to each other. Fighting!!

P/S: I'm doing great, mama n pappy. Muaks. Love u both.

I miss her SO MUCH

2009-03-18T09:32:00.000-07:00

I miss her so much...as she's goin to leave at 7am sharp in the morning. I love her more than anyone do. Din see her for months make me miss her even more. I'm worry of her that she cant take care of herself, feel lonely n having serious homesick as i am, not feeling well, cant get adapted, life is too hard for her...yada yada yada all those blasss.
Promise me, you must be happy all the time. I sure will be missing u like hell...

Especially dedicated to my beloved lil sis, Kai Sing.

I LOVE YOU

I'll always smile. (=

Past Tense

2009-03-15T06:18:00.000-07:00

Wont be going to remember sth that had past, neither to remember it purposely nor forcing myself to forget it. Missing it is juz sth so normal but will not look back, as there's no turning back. Look forward is wad i shud n wad i must do. And i started to accept it from the bottom of my heart. Letting down is juz a period of time as time is the best medicine. I oways believe in that.
Well, will be busy bout the exhibition and another mid term exam which falls on Friday. And 4 more assignments to rush of. Hmph......okay de la. ^^ Time flies when studying, weeks pass as 24 hours arent that enuf for a day. Haha. Say till myself bz like big boss anei....LOL! Din listen to radio since start getting in uni till now. Zzz... Become panda eyes now lo....mostly late sleep at night n get up early in the morning. @.@ Nvm, hard time will pass very soon. ^^ Everything is hard b4 it comes to easy, thats wad i heard from my fren n i agree with that. Hehe.
Ok la........updated. One more thing, got someone try to imitate me bout the 'updated' term in msn personal msg. Yea...u noe who u r~ XD Super duper extra very extremely zi lian thought he so leng zai de Siao Kia!!! Tada!!!~ LOL.
Ok la.......Ciaoz~

p/s: Molly, gambateh and take care! I'm proud of u. ^^

Miss home. (=

I will always smile.

2009-03-05T04:20:00.001-08:00

Wah...juz realize i've been no updating my blog for a long time, haha. Stepping in the month of March which means i'm getting busy with my hectic assignments + presentations + mid term. Today juz finish one of my paper, i think that ah.....ok ok la. =.="
Well, last week sth awful happened to me as I'll never forget it. Treat that as lesson for me lo. I wish somehow my careless mistake will wake me up. Wake me up when September ends~~~ LOL! To be honest, i did thinking of given up and went back to where I belong after the incident, start thinking whether the new life really suit me well here or not, or am I shouldnt be at here since from the beginning. Well, I'm having big dilemma n great anxiety in me during that hard times. But somehow for now, I chose to carry on of what I've decided since from the start. After a period of time, I feel much more better n relieved. So no worries...to my family that worry me alot.
Going to have a quiz on this coming Saturday n exam on nx week n following n following of weeks...presentations some more. Zzz... Actually presentations r still ok for me, but exam ah...sometimes really stress me up! T.T Want Mama... >.< I miss home so much. Miss everything n everyone in Kch. Miss Lucky too. T.T Be strong la wei....huiyoo~ XD
I will always smile (=

P/S: Take care of urself at there oh, Molly. Lurve you ^^

Pssst...

2009-02-07T05:25:00.000-08:00

Yo~ Bout 2 weeks+ din blogging lo......lazy ki, haha. Hmph....coming back to Kampar on 3rd of Feb, 1245pm de flight then reach KL at about ah......230pm like dat. I had KFC at airport while waiting for my fren there. After meeting my friend at LCCT then we take Aerobus to KL Sentral. While waiting for the KTM, we went to KFC have dinner gain, haha. But i juz drank Pepsi n fries, cuz not really hungry. Get in 550pm de train then heading to Kampar, reach Kampar at 8pm sth. Called a taxi n reached my house. You know.......the feel of reaching Kampar here makes me low like hell...i miss Kch so damn much. Miss home, miss fren, miss trees, miss land, miss stones, miss cloud, miss Saberkas, miss Spring, miss Saberkas, miss ham pa lang there.... LOL. Sot de. Okay, juz ignore me. XD
When came here for the first time, i not having homesick as seriously as this time. Maybe have short n nice time with family n frens in Kch then miss there so so much lo. Then assignments started to be given n getting MORE n MORE. Goddam. Haven buy a bicycle yet, use bus to sch everyday. Then most of my classes start early in the morning which means i gotta get up at 630am. Ya allah, Tuhanku~ =.=
Update my blog after been requested by a good fren of mine, kepoh de him......oways wanna noe wad am i up to. XD No la, Alex... Haha. The rude boy. LOL. Today is Saturday, juz went dinner n stroll with housemates, then tmr Sunday go Tesco buy some groceries lo. Monday is Thaipusam public holiday then Tuesday i have no class, so juz go to school at Wednesday. ^^
Okay la, i wanna stop here liao. Go pong pong. Hehe. CiaoZ!~
I miss home.

Better In Time

2009-01-23T18:16:00.000-08:00

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow i can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that i deserve it
Now i realize i really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly i'm learning to love again
All i know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cuz i deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without sth there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that the path
I believe in
And i know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All i know is I'm gon' be ok

Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cuz i deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you n me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine
without you
Yes I will

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cuz i deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Pain but I won't say a thing. (=

...is

2009-01-22T02:15:00.000-08:00

...can barely smile these days. Is standing at T-junction. Is not feeling good. Is miserable. Is not being greedy. Is should be alone. Is keeping every good memories deep in heart. Is being appreciative. Is curing...herself.

Condolence

2009-01-19T06:00:00.000-08:00

After first week of my uni life, getting to my 2nd week in it. Well....currently, i think i like my campus but not the lifestyle here. Like uni lifestyle i mean but not the Kampar lifestyle, thats wad i mean. Haha. Boring dao~~ =.= Actually my schedule quite pack one but i'm free on Tues n Sunday, hehe. Happy, better than no holidays at all right? Okay lo, enuf for me dy. ^^
I get a bad news from Molly juz now n i sent my condolence to my aunt, i hope she and her family can get through all this hard times with optimistics thinking n angel will always be side of 'em every second. I can barely smile of coz but life still gotta continue on it. Actually now so sleepy n exhausted, most of my classes start early in the morning n i gotta get up so early to wait for bus. I don want history happens gain as i missed the bus n gotta walk for 20 mins to sch like yesterday. Yesterday huh? Yea, shud be.....no, shud be saturday. Wadever, haha.
Tomorrow got another early morning class. Not my tutorial actually but im gonna join that group as i cant be able to attend my coming tutorial for that, cuz goin back for CNY. Hehe. *wink* Talk bout CNY, i not very into it but i'm excited n anticipated for now cuz gonna meet my beloved family n frens so so soon~ Hehe. Thats the reason. Goin back for 13 days. Quite long actually, wahahaha. I skip class, so wad? Hiak Hiak. Sorry lo, teachers...... LOL.
Alright ppl......till here. Ciaoz~

First Day To School!!!~

2009-01-11T23:12:00.000-08:00

Today is my first day to school. Woke up at 630am while i juz aslept at the time of 2.30am perhaps? Haha...... Then wait for bus at bus stop nearby my hostel at 710am. Reached school at 725am like dat lo. My class started at 8am. Go to block B where my first class goin to have then find for 5 mins like dat du found liao, hehe. I thought i will lost. LOL!

Get in the class and sit next to a girl who named........Li Mei or sth? Cant recall, a nice n fair girl with spec. Then know 3 more new girl-frens who one of them is from Sarawak too, but Miri la. But consider same hometown with me too la. Haha. She's tall n i m short. T.T The first class is Communicative English then after that we went for brunch at cafeteria at the time of ah.......11am like that eh, around that time la. Then accompany my newly-known frens to finance department buying the bus tix. We saw a long queue there cuz they're busy buying for the car sticker, heard need RM300 for a year. Consider expensive? I think so la, haha.

Next, we went to our faculty building check on our schedule cuz heard got any changes. After checking realized add more one subject, means this sem we are having 7 subjects. Muntah darah. But i don think it's compulsory la, shud be part of the elective subject. After that, we went back to our 1230pm class. We formed a group since the newly-known frens all are same tutorial group with me, such a coincidence. Haha. 5 girls in a group. My class got 4 Sarawakians include me la, but then 3 of them are from Miri. =.= Why no Kch ppl de bo......errrr~ Haha. Swt. We were having Pengajian Malaysia which i hate it, then lecturer started giving assignment for us. Peng. Mid of Feb gotta hand in the assignment then we got presentation for that on April. But then lecturer let us left earlier at 2pm, actually my class shud end on 330pm la. Better la like dat, haha. Then i go to wait for bus lo. Wait for 5 mins then bus came n i naik bus. Crowded dao~~~gotta stand lo. Then i reached home n took bath. Sitting in front of the laptop blogging my first day to school, haha.

Alright, my sis said my blog so boring, all words de......then i ma upload some pics lo, happy boi? Haha.

Pics of my room. ^^

* my messy bed n beloved Lucky*

* my study desk *

* my bathroom *

* living room *

*sink*

Go nap liao~ Zzz. ^^

Seriously...

2009-01-08T18:00:00.000-08:00

Seriously homesick. I cant help myself stop thinking of my family, frens and everything in Kch. I miss laksa!!! T.T Haha....Especially when heard of parents' voice, i cant stop from dropping tears but cannot let them know right, later they worry then not good la...haiz. See me this considerable. And i miss Lucky n LV!!! Hug! Wanna go sing k with my babes, wanna go yamcha with my frens, wanna go movies with family gain......sobz.
Gonna start my first class on monday n i got abit kin tio n excited, wonder how will it be goin. And later wanna go to sch awhile lo, check out where my classrooms are. Then know what, here de students ho.....cycle to sch de eh! When i first came n saw it, i was like.....'Whoa!! What the......' totally speechless. Well, Kampar is a small n tiny town wad......(shake head shake head) Haiz. Here juz got one hypermarket only lo - Tesco, and has no cinema!
Seriously, i m homesick terribly.

Finally

2009-01-05T04:10:00.000-08:00

Wake up early in the morning around 8am sth then we went for breakfast. After that we started going to my living place there lo. When reach Westlake office, it was so crowded as everyone was busy making booking for the room, but i've made in Dec 2008 la. Then i take the number and wait for my turn lo, wait wait wait....finally was my turn. Doing some procedures then go to what contract agreement then payment n get the room key. Then i still hafta go to my room doing some checking so that don have any losing or breaking, then hafta back to the office to pass up the form gok. Tiring.
Next, we went to the Kampar bus station and Tesco to add some groceries lo. Having lunch, back to my house then waving goodbye-s...sad-ing. Back to my room to do some tidies and preparations lo. After that try the internet connection in my room, still ok la the line, for now la. Haha. Cook myself a Maggi mee chicken flavour de lo. After eating feel sleepy dy...haha. Maybe will sleep earlier tonight, tomorrow morning needa get up early to catch the bus goin to the orientation gok. All are new faces to me. Hope my uni life will be interesting n fun. Thanks God. With lurve.
Goodnight everyone. (8.22pm)
I miss home.

Miss home...

2009-01-04T02:30:00.000-08:00

Miss home miss home miss home miss home......I juz reached Kampar, Perak at the time of 4pm, after settle down everything is already 630pm by now. Stayed at KL for two days. Previous post saying Airasia kns right? Then when i went to airport at 430pm then boarding everything la, suddenly Airasian said the flight delayed to 650pm. What? Again? Damn it...been delayed for twice in a day. Pissed off. Then ma sit down, eat burger n wait time passes lo. When get in the plane then the electric got prob pulak, awhile got electric awhile blackout. Ya allah....zzz. When reach KL oredy was 11pm like dat. =.=" Should be afternoon reach de but end up with reach there at night, can eat supper somemore. Then after settle down everything. me n my frens went to eat supper somewhere Chinatown there. Then go back n zzz liao. Tired.
Then ah, the nx day go walk walk lo, we went to Bintang there then Mid valley then Pavillion then Times Square. We watched the wad......Four Christmases. Funny la. Then take a cab go back lo. Sleep. Then 4/1/09 (today) this morning we went to buy bus tix at puduraya there, from KL to Kampar de. Will be departing at 1230pm but end up at 120pm. Swt. Banyak orang dan panas. -.-" The journey took bout 2 1/2 hours like that lo. Then took a cab n back to our living place. Go out have a walk around but after eating, it's raining heavily then we ran back lo. Maybe tonight will be goin out to buy some groceries.
Tired, so i juz make this page short. Will be updated soon.
I miss home.

K.N.S

2009-01-01T22:58:00.000-08:00

K.N.S stands for kanasai and it refers to no one but you, yea, its u.......Airasia. My flight is 12.55pm but know what, been delayed to 5.35pm. People, is 5.35pm lo!!! Delay also wont delay for that long time gua, tiiii......muntah darah. Another one unbelievable. And Airasia workers din even announce the flight had been delayed, still need us go to ask them ourselves. Zzz......... Improve sikitlah, Airasians. =.="
So now i still can blogging typing this 'article', haha. Currently is 3.16pm, still got 45 mins then i hafta back to airport gain. waiting for calling n boarding those ocibala, repeatedly. Swt.
At first I'm waiting at Gate 2 with one of my fren then wait wait wait......eee~ 1255pm liao le but still din get in our flight. Then ma go to the counter there ask lo, who knows the Airasians said the flight had been delayed n asked us to queue up for what procedures. Then ma line up lo, move super duper slowly the queue, zzz... Finally is my fren n my turn, comes the Airasians gain saying is it ok to move us to another flight at 5.35pm. What? 5.35pm!! Yea, tidak salah dengar really is 5.35pm. Zzz...that time is 2pm sth. According to the Airasian, 5.35pm is the earliest flight at that time, others r at night. Cant do anything too......waving white flag saying ok lo, take that plane...sobz. After that, the Airasian gave us lunch voucher from Only Mee!!! Should we be happy? NO. The food........kns. Ate for a lil then juz drink the mineral water liao, mineral water also free de. But i think it tastes better than what i juz eaten at Only Mee. =.="
Then a friend sent me back to home gain lo, since still got plenty of time ma. Hugging saying Hi to my lovely Lucky and back to my room typing this Airasia STORY. Zzz~ Haiz....spoilt my mood and ruin my plan. Later reach LCCT also already 7.30pm like that la. Waiting luggage those gok. Sigh. After settle down everything at KL i think also is supper time dy, also don have the appetite dy. Peng.
Anyway, heard if Airasia delay for more than 2 hours, got RM200 de voucher. Got meh? They juz give what Only Mee lunch voucher nia le. Go ask later. -.- Ciaoz!

O.M.G!!

2009-01-01T00:08:00.000-08:00

Cant believe it!!! I'm leaving tomorrow, haiz... Times do really flies huh? It's 4.18pm thursday (01-01-2009) and at the same time of tomorrow, wonder where am i. XD Maybe i'm himpit-himpitting with crowds at some nooks of KL there. =.="

I think i ever gone to KL when i was really really small, hmph......maybe in primary 3? Haha. With family and of coz i have no any memories bout there in my mind now. Juz cars, people n all bla.... XD Actually i not very into KL lo....so chaotic la, not safe la, all vandalisme n gangsterisme those shiat there....(shake head shake head) swt. Will be at KL stay 2 days then juz go to my Perak Campus of UTAR. Looking forward to check out at Kampar cuz it's the small place that i'm going to spend my 3 years there later, so sure hafta be skilled in it la, haha. Hope i can adapt myself there really soon but ah.....homesick for sure. (sigh)

Going off tomorrow in the afternoon, waving goodbye-s to family, tahan-ing tears not to let them drop, complicated feels fighting inner of me.....juz rehearse it over first for now la. XD Sure i miss home alot...dad, mum, 2 sisters, Lucky, LV, Linda n Bunny. T.T And of coz everything n my frens in Kch. Adios~ Haha.

Again, Happy New Year everyone! Hehe. Go continue pack my things liao. =]

A New Year Of 2009

2008-12-31T07:36:00.000-08:00

This is my very first time blogging, still fresh here. Haha. Erm...still have few more minutes to the year of 2009 and i'm going to further my studies at West Malaysia starting the 5th of Jan, 2009.
Nth much to say here actually but waiting to see the fireworks and countdown with Molly later on, haha. Molly is my youngest sis who is so close and always stick with me. XD So till here yea, ciaoz!~ ^^ Happy New Year 2009 to people out there. Hehe.