LOST

Im touched when seeing the words...asking myself will I be too cruel, y am I so stubborn n have so much of hard principles in me. Painful. I find myself lost, dunno where shud I go to. Im hiding myself up from anyone. I start to hide into the shell. I have a deep think after that...I dunno wad i want. A happy n beloved life? Or a life of forcing myself to cheer up? I myself cant figure out. Time is the best medicine of anything, I oways believe in that. I don get used to expose my own confusion to others, how am I suppose to start an opening? No idea. I......am hiding up.
I don belong to anyone. But my family. I miss u all.



回来

Another day......

of hurt. of disappointed. of suffer. of sad. of depress. of miserable. of pain.
intended to let go. to give up. to end the sorrow. to wave goodbye. to live a happier life.
at this moment......i juz thought of my beloved family.
i miss u all much. u all is the reason i keep breathing. u all is the reason makes me stand. u all is the reason to let me stay. u all is the reason i keep surviving. u all is the reason who give me strength. u all is the reason who give me courage. u all is the reason who make me become stronger than yesterday. u all is the reason.......to resist my pain.


I will be good without u





I'm telling myself I'm happy. (=

First Weekend

First weekend after sch reopen. Wee....!!~ Time flies, haha. Time flies = assignments + presentations + homework + mid term + final coming soon. Sob sob~ BUT!! Gambateh!!! Haha. Tiiii....new lectures got abit boring ah......boring dao.....!!~ Even sleep b4 going in class, still feelin sleepy in the middle of the lecture, juz can blur-ly see lecturers' mouths r opening n closing, opening n closing, opening n closing, opening n closing n opening n closing... LAME! XD Having a happy weekend with ECC, hiak hiak~ *Huggiez*
Got wad more to add on ho..... OH!! Weather recently si beh hot, oways feel thirsty. Ppl, gotta drink more water n take good care oh. Hmph.....Im a sick ppl in my previous sem break, cuz din take care of myself lo. Sigh. And then ah..... OH!! Takin' Back My Love is my hito now, hiak hiak~ Got abit so nice ah.....haha. Actually nth much to talk here, juz feel like crappin' only, haha.
I love Mickey!!!!!!! Random again. But really love Mickey ma...maybe he's my lover in my past life. Hmph.....seriously think so. LOL! K la.....stop here liao. Cleaned dusty blog. =.="



Miss my Kong's. (=

Big Cleaning!!

Time to update my dusty blog.....haha~ Been complain by someone it's time to update my blog liao. Hmph....I've started my sem break on 8th of May, after that I went to Genting with my BFFs. Hiak Hiak!~ We play many outdoor games at Genting, we even get a tattoo! Wee!!~ I plan to get a tattoo before goin back for studies too, hehehe~~ Ladies n gentlemen.....of coz is fake de tattoo, guai guai loi here.....where will make real tattoo wor....LOL! n I don have the gut to make a real tattoo too, cannot meh? =p After playing for a day at Genting, then we use cable car n change to taxi back to KL city. Driver drove so fast oh.....but i not kia kia. XD LAME!! =.=" n then wad happen liao? Hmph....oh, meet Jelly, Belly n Molly after that then we straight go to Pavilion. To make everything short, we took pics, walk walk, eat eat, walk walk gain through some days. I din gain weigh.......hiak hiak. I think. Oh la oh la.....wadever. Lame gain. We got went to Pavilion, 1 Utama, Curve, IKEA, Times Square, Sungei Wang, Mid Valley.....those big big n high high de buildings, sui bian la~ don want to think liao...... *yawn* Lol. Then we back to Kuching at 13th of May.

After lepak-ing at home for a week, then I went to Miri liao. Went there from 21st to 26th, which means I juz landed at Kch for a few hours ago then blogging liao. Hardworking le~~ Yea, i know, hehe. =p Have fun at Miri. Erm.....there is much more nth to play if compare to Kch of coz (Mirians don beat me) but I still having fun n happy happy. Hehe~ Cuz I can spent quality times with someone I care n love, but not depends on where am I. *wink* Something nonid to say till so clear de, right? Hiak hiak~ Happy times fly but I've get used to it since 2 yrs n 5 months n I oways feel contented. ^^

Sien lo......still got few days then gotta start study liao.....sob sob. But I will gambateh, fighting!!~ Hehe. Talk bout studies, results juz released n I have checked. Overall still okay, hard works n great efforts paid. Hmph....then wad more ha? Oh......recently got 2 chinese songs r my hito, hehe. 胡彦斌---男人KTV n 游鸿明---无字的情批. I know its not new songs but I seldom listen to chinese songs, so ah......like dis la, hehe. Really got abit so nice le......go listen go listen. Then got wad more to say ho.....hmph~ I think nth liao. Aiyah, sui bian la.....got write sth then ok liao, don say don have write at all. Still consider hardworking right? Yea, I oways know Im so hardworking, thanks for the appraisal. LOL. Ss here ba. Swt.

Ok la......if got think of anything to add, I will drop by gain. Hehe. Goodnight everyone. Sweet dream~


Missing you is my routine. (=

It's All About ME

Im happy with what I have now. Always feel so contented n do not ask for more than you can get. Family is my life, friends are my happiness and you're my soul. Learn to be mature and understanding, learn to forgive and accept, learn to be simple and grateful. Do not take things for granted, do not assume it's a must of people out there should treating you good n nice. I still got a lot more rooms of improvement. I don rush to learn all values cuz I've a lot of time to experience the happenings in my life. I always think Im not a quick learner, I need time to think, Im not someone who is smart. Im headstrong. I have high pride. I start to view things from different perspectives. Do not judge a book by its cover, no one is born to be bad but they have good hearts since from the beginning. I fight for what I want. I dont give a damn bout what people think bout me. I never bother of who have being not important to me.


Thanks for my family for bringing me to this world, teach me a lot of things since the day I was born. Gimme such a happy n harmony home more than everything. For giving me a chance to experience n meet all sort of people. For building what I am now.
Thanks for my friends that always be by my side whenever I need you all the most.
Thanks for those who had hurt me, without you all, I wont be start thinking how realistic this world is. Without you all, I wont be start protecting myself. Without you all, I wont be cautious living my life to the fullest.
Thanks for people who had passby my life, for all of the memories we've been through together.
Thanks for you who teach me bout life. I be more mature than the old days of me, I be more understanding than the day you know me. I learnt a lot of things from you and I always appreciate that.


Grateful. Simple. Easy. Contented. Forgiving.

Still a mummy's girl. I miss home. (=

Me, Myself And I

Read a mail sent by a friend of mine...it's so meaningful as let me think of, maybe i shud make my life easier. I love to be in low-profile, i don like to be the focus under the spot light, i don like to talk bout the happenings of my life in public. But i would like to show the words that gimme a chance to think deeper, closer.

break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately, love truly

laugh constantly

and never stop smiling

no matter how strange life is

life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here

we should smile and be grateful

Easy life is always the life I wanted. Maybe i should live a happier n easier life. (=

Random

miss home

LOST

quiet

memory

apology

care

abandon

neglect

hard

THANK YOU

I can take the pain. (=