Human is greedy, ask for more and never ending. Human never appreciate the good things happen or exist around them till they lost it. It's just human nature, isn't it?
Memory flashed back to the time where my granny stayed with us while I was still in primary school. She always sat there still watching tv with me after I back from school. I'm not so close with her as my Hakka dialect is not as fluent as my elder sister. My broken dialect. >.<
子欲养而亲不在.
Everyone live and die. So as you and me. But I just miss her so badly. She was so old and weak, as she need to have specialist and nurses to take care of her routine life and daily activity. I can't recall the actual date she was admitted to the nursing home. But the memory is fresh in my mind where I always go visit her with my mom and family whenever I was in Kuching. I talked to her, whispered beside her ears, padded on her head, smelled and kissed her.
I felt sorry that I couldn't be with her when she closed her eyes.... The sin in me is killing me. Now. Can I kiss her for the last? The guilt in me.....I cant bear. I wish to hug my mom to give her strength and support, but I was not there. I WAS NOT. Sometimes distance really kills, isn't it? It's missing season. It's missing season. Missing season.
It's all about belief. I believe granny is happy up there, meeting with her loved ones above. Everything has two sides, everyone has two faces. Even the world, is beautiful yet cruel. God sent her to us but took her away. HE took her away. To live a better life above with HIM. I pray for her happiness. I pray for family happiness.
Left half year in my uni life, I appreciate the friends who come into my life, who give me happiness and support me all these years. They help me to cope with my homesickness indeed. =) They are great persons in my life. I love them.
不要哭.
